Rediscover Me

I work with a girl who is constantly going on and on about her healthy lifestyle. This is a person I’ve become close with, and although I thought there was potential for a long-term friendship, she’s the type of person that takes cheap shots at others to bring herself up. I don’t like that at all. My kindness has always attracted people like this because I think I give off an air that makes those types of people sense that because I don’t like others to hurt, I will take a lot of unnecessary shit.

I don’t have a lot of friends because of the above and that is especially true when it comes to the relationship I have with other females.

I’ve come to find that the type of person, male or female (but mostly female because I just don’t think most men are built to be that superficial… Though they do exist, sadly) who are like what I described above, generally have a hard time processing that someone can be attractive and weigh more than 100 pounds. I think it’s almost intimidating to them, in a way, because they feel like something is wrong with them personally instead of just accepting that beauty can come in any form. I also feel that if/when they realize it’s not them, and accept that others are attractive, they don’t just embrace it but rather try to knock them down so they can still feel superior.

There are people that just make stupid comments out of ignorance like “you would be so beautiful if you lost weight” , “you’d look so good if you got rid of your thighs” or “you should never wear white because it makes you look bigger”, and the sad thing is that it’s very hard to put an end to ignorance, so sometimes you have to deal with it. But there are others that make comments like “I fought a girl at jujitsu that was… Oh, how much do you weigh, Liza? Yeah she was xxxx pounds like you (very loudly on purpose)” and follow it with “I’m so sore because she was at least two of me” and the like over and over, out of mean spiritedness and low self-esteem. And that sucks.

If you’re that type of person, reassess your personality, because others can see right through it, and it’s disgusting.